January 27, 2005

I shall blame it on the moon...

On Tuesday, I decided to give my most favoritest sister in the whole world a jingle. We don't talk often, mostly because she is busy with three kids and a husband, and I am busy with my own shite. So, since I was driving home from having din-din with my sweetie, then was going to head to the gym, I popped my earpiece in and dialed her up. We are chatting, and I mention I received a letter from a friend of mine. I mentioned this to her, because said friend lives down the street from my sis, and I haven't heard from her in a while. The mention of the letter triggers my sister to remember a letter that came to me via my parents house. For those keeping score, I have not lived there for nearly seven years. The letter came while my sister was watching my parents house, as they were on vacation. The letter was addressed to Raven Maiden-name. For those of you still keeping score, I have been married for over three years. So, my sister tells me she has this letter, and I need to guess who it is from. She gives me a hint...it's an ex-boyfriend. I can't think of one who would write me a letter. She continues to hint, until I figure out, it is from my ex-boyfriend from EIGHT YEARS AGO. Again, if you are keeping score, this would be the guy who, in reflection, was kind of a jerk to me while we were together, who freaked out and dumped me while trying to make it see like it was all my fault, who already had a girlfriend at that point, and who then tried to make me be his friend, which meant I wasn't allowed to call him or come to see him, but if he called me or came to see me, I was to jump to it. Oh, and have I mentioned that this happened EIGHT YEARS AGO???
So, my curiousity is piqued, and I have her read the letter to me. She first provides a very vivid description of the letter. First off, he apparently expected someone else to open the letter, and the letter was in another envelope, with a post-it explaining that he would appreciate it if the letter was passed along to me, and an extra stamp. The letter also had a Spongebob Squarepants sticker attached to it, depicting Spongebob biting his lip. The letter was written on the back of a photocopy of a Halloween picture (granted, the letter was sent sometime in October). He addressed that fact that the letter seemed like it was coming out of nowhere, and that he realized it had been EIGHT YEARS. However, his biggest regret is dumping me, especially in such a terrible way. He apologized for treating me so poorly, especially when I was so great. And, despite that time being fuzzy, he remembers our moment of clarity at Mcdonald's. (After thinking about it, I think it was when we were talking about spirituality, and I shared my thoughts on reincarnation...that's the only thing I can think of, anyway). He also mentioned that he saw me about three years ago when I was out with friends on a visit. He regrets not coming over and talking to me then. (which if he would have written to me then, even...that would have made more sense). He doesn't know if I'm "married or whatever" (I think by the whatever, he could think I am a lesbian. He seemed to think that about ex-girlfriends when we were dating). And he included his e-mail if I wanted to write to him. He said that if he is asked what his biggest regret is, that is it. He closed with the recommendation that I see Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind because it prompted him to write this letter. (for the record, I saw the movie. I didn't write any letters)

So, I was very freaked out for a while. I am calmer now. I figure that there is a reason for this to happen, and the universe is trying to tell me something. I just don't know what. And, what is he looking for from this? I am getting varying advice from peeps. On one hand, it is freaking weird. On the other, at least he realizes that he was a jerk, and is owning up. I just don't know what I am supposed to do with all of this.

Can anyone else shed some light on this??? I am way confused.

Posted by raven at January 27, 2005 12:17 PM

My little red warning flags are flying right now too. A friend of my tried to commit suicide in college. On of the last things he did was to apologize to all of his ex-girlfriends for treating them badly. And when I say all I mean ALL. He asked me if I could remember any of the girls he dated in Jr. High. He wrote letters to all of them. A month later he came back home and took a bunch of sleeping pills.

So now I'm all super touchy feely about things like this, and probably to fault. I've seen lots of evidence which suggest that people just want to make ammends and don't have some dark underlying cause.

Yeah, now I've probably compounded the issue. Sorry. Don't let it get you down. :)

Posted by: NQTYD at January 27, 2005 02:33 PM

Oh and I should mention that my friend did not die. I guess I only sort of made that clear.

Posted by: NQTYD at January 27, 2005 04:20 PM

hmmm...that thought had crossed my mind. So far, here is the advice I have recieved:
write him back to acknowledge the apology
write him back just to tell him where I'm at in my life
ignore it and just know that I have made his heart ache for years
create a dummy e-mail account to write him, and delete it should he turn psycho...

those are the ones that I can think of...

if this was some cry for help, then what?

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